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Where have I been? Changes that need to be done.

Hey there, Internet!

So maybe some of you noticed that I have not posted anything in a month (prior to the Zenmed post). There have been quite a few reasons.

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I currently am working 250-300hrs / month AND am in a postgraduate training. As much as I love working on this blog I earn my money as geriatric nurse. Wondering why I work that much even though here in Germany ~160hrs / month are common?

I’m preparing to move. Again. Let’s not talk about all the reasons in this post because hell, there are a lot. Moving to this city is part of the reason why I felt this horrible lately. What seemed to be so perfect turned into a complete nightmare. Moving needs money (so does the MOT test that needs to be done in September). So more working hours for more money, this year only though.

Networking, real life and online. I noticed a lot of my ‘friends’ would not even care for how bad I have been feeling lately, people that I always supported as much as possible now don’t have a moment to talk to me or even add something to the pile of chaos and destruction. Toxic people who really put me down, drained my energy, made me feel horrible, empty and worthless. Finally learned my lesson, now I know who will be with me in my bad times and when I am in trouble as well. Been talking to them a lot and also been on a goth portal more often, meeting new people.

Digital Detox. With all the other tiny things in life it was time to focus. So I was offline most of the time. Very few posts on Instagram or Twitter,… Not answering emails, phonecalls or PMs within a second. Sometimes what you need most is to slow down a bit, to breathe.

Declutter. Flat, wardrobe, life, everything. That needs a while.

And because I don’t want to stop this blog, the posting schedule for this year, as long as I work that much of extra hours, will have to change. For that time one post / week, early Monday will be done. Maybe more if I have enough time but better setting my goals low. The comments still will be set to be manually approved. One hour of social media / day so maybe answering will still take a while.

This will change when I have more time again, and a new home.

When was the last time you did a digital detox and declutter your life? Have a great evening!



Random 16-12

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Last monthly post of the year, last whatever post of the year on justkeepbrains.com, looking forwards to a more active 2017, hopefully without any breaks, with some interesting topics and I will try my best to really add the youtube contents that I’ve planned so many times before, same with my etsy shop… Enjoy your New Years eve, I hope you can spend it with the people you love and see you in a hopefully less negative year 2017!

Monthly Post of Random Pictures / Thoughts & Questions / Links and other things that happened during the past month (or since writing last random post) and would not fit into another post…

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left: working on my chainmail dress again, put on too much weight since I started working on it a few years ago so starting over. center: my opinion on 2016. right: amazingly bright rainbow, guess December already shows how good 2017 CAN become!

Maybe these thoughts / questions would be useful as inspiration or someone knows the answer? (If none of these, hopefully at least they would be entertaining.)

list-bat-png Dyeing / bleaching back to platin blonde bit by bit (roots and a few streaks at once) and so far am happy with how my hair reacts to the bleach. Already feel more like myself again and please, someone remind me if I ever want to dye black that I did not like it, that I looked like my mom (as mentioned before, nothing against her but I don’t have to look like a younger version of an already existing person)
list-bat-png I saw a documentation where someone said that when fashion industry introduced standard sizes it was the actual start of people feeling bad in their bodies because they usually would simply not fit 100% so something on their bodies always would be too thin, too wide, too whatever.
list-bat-png Signed up for amazon prime, sometimes I just don’t have enough time to drive to the dvd store and while there probably is nothing that annoys me as much as regular TV sometimes you just need moving pictures instead of music and sometimes my laptop only wants a few programs to be open at the same time-
list-bat-png Did a trip to Berlin with one of those car sharing portals, this way it was cheap and ‘ok’ so probably will do this sometimes again (update: two trips are planned for January)! And yes, it felt good to be in Berlin and I had really nice company, movies and great food!

And here are my most favourite / inspiring posts from other blogs / websites this month:

list-bat-png The herdless witch launched her ebook, sons and daughters of perdition
list-bat-png Bane from Goth it yourself did a great post about her thoughts on blogging that got me and a lot of other people thinking…

Most played songs this month:

list-bat-png Sex Gang Children – Sebastian
list-bat-png L’ame Immortelle – Stern
list-bat-png Anne Marie Hurst – Your Eyes
list-bat-png Cynical Existence – I’m broken
list-bat-png Agonoize – Femme Fatale

What has been inspiring for you this December or 2016 in general? Any plans for January / 2017? Have a nice evening, see you next year! Please remember when celebrating with fireworks that it can be pretty scary to animals, maybe there is a way you can reduce it?


My Cave 16-11 -Moving to Oldenburg (& Youtube)

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So you might have already noticed that it turned a bit quiet around here, after my emotional breakdown I was facing another ‘new job and new home’ thing, both required me to spend a horrible lot amount of time in my car, I often only had 2 hours of sleep because it would be another long distance move. In the end I would have been able (jobwise) decide between northern part of Germany and eastern part of Germany. I have friends in both of those areas, knowing the goth scenes of both are alive, flats compared to wage roughly not a big difference as well but the job offer from northern Germany was a bit better so I went with that. Would now have to find a flat in Oldenburg because that would be the smallest size of city I would be willing to go (and that only because it is in a nice distance to cities like Bremen, Hamburg and the coast of the north sea, ruhr area would be within two hours drive as well.)

Tiny video of my new, tiny flat a few moments after I got my keys! Video is shared on my Youtube channel

So I applied for 30 flats within a month, they would only take me for this one.My second favourite though so I won’t cry. It is a 35m² 2 room appartment, not far away from the city or the highway, affordable as well (as in maybe 100€ less than my current flat). Bad points would be that it will be pretty difficult to find a parking slot but can’t be worse than here in Brunswick, there is no balcony so I had to give away quite a lot of my plants. And I don’t have my own mailbox (everyone in the house shares a huge one). There are those boxes you can rent not too far away though, will take a closer look into that as well.

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left: front door, center: huge window in bedroom, right: living room to kitchen, bat puzzle already moved in!

Now back to the flat itself. What I think is impressive are the really high ceilings, 3.55m (usually we have max 2.5m, think about all the extra knicknacks and spiderwebs one can place here!). The old flooring tiles add a nice atmosphere as well and it still amuses me that the shower is located in a tiny room attatched to the living room and without an actual door! An extra plus is that I am allowed to change things as long as it could be seen as an improvement. And with really old floorings in the toiletroom or shower room or with the old shover valve or lightswitches and whatnot that will be easy! My mind currently is exploding from all the ideas!

So while I already did order my new kitchen (facing a week without internet connection so that had to be done quick) and some fabric for curtains and a few knicknacks for the other rooms I first again will focus on the hallway, I like to have a beautiful, cozy spot as soon as I enter a flat, that’s why. Afterwards moving on to the other rooms, one room at a time with maybe a few tiny things happening in other rooms in the meantime though. Hoping you will stay with me on this journey of my new flat and new home area!

I know a lot of bloggers and youtubers and other online friends are currently moving, how about you? Have a nice evening!


Places: Heidepark Soltau, Halloweeks 2015!

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On their instagram Heide Park Soltau (facebook) asked everyone to share their Halloween adventures with them so sure, here are a few pictures of October, 29th when I went to the biggest theme park in northern Germany! When some friends of mine decided they wanted to go there for the Halloween specials (Halloweeks) and asked me if I wanted to join I immediatly bought my ticket. Their Halloween special 2015 was from October 17th-31st, the entire park would be covered in spooky decoration, there would be a medieval fair and a lot of specials – as well as the park being opened much longer (until 9pm, some days 10pm!) so one would be able to ride on the rollercoasters in the dark!

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I think the last time I’ve been there was about 10 years ago and so I was a bit scared if all those amazing memories were real or just some romantic sparkling childhood imagination of mini me. When we arrived at the parking lot though everything was naturally covered in golden fallen leafs, the park itself as promised was covered in beautiful Halloween decorations, Sculpted angels, Jack-O-Lanterns, Spiderwebs, Glow-in-the-dark Eyes and everything you could wish for so even for those who do not dare to go on a rollercoaster ride there would be enough to see to not get bored. To be honest I was not sure if my stomach would be willing to face the extreme rollercoasters with loopings and all that or the freefall tower but in the end I managed to survive those as well. Not just me, also my hair which got a lot of people (visitors and employees) laughing – anyone knows that 3-Wetter-Taft commercial? There should be one for Balea Ultra Power! A lot of people also seemed to have thought I was an employee there, so many pictures were taken but well, it was a fun day!

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Anyways, we went there on a beautiful misty day but still, everything became even more beautiful when the night set in and there was light everywhere! In the evening there also was some firework but we already were at the car by then, next time!

Maybe Heidepark is not as huge as those Disney entertainment parks or Six Flags but still worth visiting, especially during those Halloweeks, for families as well as for Halloween or theme park fanatics! The only things Iwas sad about was the very limited range of gluten free things to eat (yes, sorry I prefer to not get migraines) and facing another medieval fair where the salesman did not have Wikingerblut available (Viking’s blood, mead with cherry, one of the most delicious things ever) and that I was too late for the waterslide, still not complaining, enough things were done that day!

Are there any other theme parks besides Disney & Heidepark that have Halloween specials? Have a nice evening!

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