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Review: Zenmed Adult Acne and Anti Aging Skincare, first month.

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So please first note: NOT sponsored, just my experience, I know a lot of expensive skincare companies pay for good reviews but this is my honest experience, with unedited (except for putting the pictures next to each other and adding a tiny bit of text) pictures of my skin before and now. This review includes all about how I found about Zemned, the order and delivery, communication with their customers support, a big German customs office rant and my skin results.

Here’s the problem: Since I was about 11 (begin of my puberty) I have bad skin. I don’t think there is a lot left that I haven’t tried during these 18, nearly 19 years. Definitely not the worst out there but after trying what feels like a million of products and currently using the best working stuff of those it still is bad enough to bother me. So while the first lines start to appear between my eyebrows and under my eyes I still suffer from combination skin, normal parts are fine but the oily parts really are oily as hell. Common mattifying creams (aka those that you can find in stores over here in Germany) help me for maybe an hour until my nose and forehead start to shine again. The current face stuff at least helps me for a few more hours until I look like a stick of butter melting in the sun. I have big pores, blackheads and tend to get breakouts from bad food, or whenever my skin feels bored or the need to be a bitch. At least when I stay away from chocolate and other ‘bad food’ my body is fine. I also don’t have any hormonal problems since I am under that three months injection instead of the pill and this lovely poison makes those hormones that caused the pubercy acne are literally dead. Of course, the 3-6 days right after that injection I will still get my breakouts but that’s something I could deal with. Also been to dermatologists if that is what you would suggest. All of them were not able to help. One lotion did help but after 2-3 weeks my skin started to peel off, painfully. Like I said in the first sentence, I tried everything that I could find (even some pretty disgusting things that I found online… YUCK!) On top of that, when I am stressed and asleep I am a skin picker (so bleeding wounds all over my face as well as scars from previous picking). Tried everything here as well. As mentioned before, I know there are people who have evenworse skin but mine is enough for me to suffer and to look desperately for something that could help.

Finding Zenmed:

Whatever, so I switch my products maybe three times a year, trying to find something better but so far did not find my holy grail. When I was browsing the internet this January I found yet another company (this one is based in the USA) you know, lots of good reviews, expensive prices but looking professional, yada yada. Desperate me wanted to instantly buy from them (while the money me wondered if it was just another company that would sell me overpriced products with little to no effect on my skin, yes been there some times already, that’s what people do when they are desperately fighting something) but luckily they have a lot of different products so I was confused on what to buy.

Then I found that link where you could send them a mail answering some questions about your skin and what you are looking for. I thought I would just give it a try. Within the shortest amount of time I got a friendly reply by Samantha, she asked for some more information like the exact type of breakouts (google did help a lot!) if there are ingredients that I experienced do not work well for my skin and if I have any allergies (oh btw, with a rating link below every mail). I got excited because usually the companies that would want to rip you off would not communicate that much with you so they might really be an honest company!

After I answered her additional questions she sent me a mail with products recommended exactly for my skin type and problems, cleansers, scrub, capsules, mask, moisturizers, lotions, 14 products in total for my oily skin, my breakouts, my beginning lines… Sounds a lot but definitely less than in their webshop, plus she gave short informations on what they do and how. So in the end I decided to try 4 products at first.

The order:

My order was placed January, 27th, payed a total of $164.00 via paypal, they sent it the very next day. Products I bought:

Facial Cleansing Gel ($18)

Glycolic Booster ($47)

Oil-Free Day Lotion ($30)

Omegaceramide + Recovery Moisturizer ($45)

Shipping from USA to Germany $15, totally fine as well! Like always when ordering from USA I was prepared to pay another 1/3 of my orders worth at German customs. And while waiting for my parcel I got a few newsletters with special offers which got me even more excited, I was really hoping this would work for me and my next order would be placed with a nice newsletter offer – like, who would not enjoy something extra added to their order or getting 10% off?!

Customs office rant (just my luck, see next chapter if you are not interested in customs troubles, there is a happy end!)

I got my invoice and went to the German customs on February, 13th. Could have been a Friday instead of Monday, even though they are said to be the worst in a week. Short story and after proof reading and editing hopefully without insults: Those people at the customs office looked through my order and said the booster is a medical product instead of skin care. – Every cream you can find here in Germany says something about the skintype it was made for. The ingredients can be found in products you can buy in Germany, the list of what ingredients you are not allowed to import is not available to public audience so there is no way to check by yourself. This booster is available at a store in the UK which still is part of the EU or at least was by that time and hence should have same import laws. I won’t tell every detail of what happened but I haven’t been this angry and annoyed for a long time. Whenever I head to the customs office (this was the first time in this city though) there is a problem. (Could write books on that) Anyways, I had to leave my booster behind, the other three products came home with me – paid 20€ custom fees so it was cheaper than I expected. So maybe boosters are better bought from a reseller in Europe.

Zenmeds reaction:

I mailed Zenmed about the booster and customs problem and they talked to their head department, again they replied fast and very polite. After I sent them the customs document about not being allowed to import the booster and they sent me 50% of the boosters worth back to my paypal account. Would not have expected that because usually customs problems end being the customers problem. And I never even asked for money, just wanted to let them know what happened so they could let people know that there might be problems with this booster at customs. They also said they never had problems like that before so maybe it really is just my bad customs luck again.

Did I find my holy grail?

I actually think I did! So I had a daytime lotion, nighttime lotion and a liquid cleansing soap. From my previous products I would still use my wet makeup wipes to get rid of my face before using the cleansing product. The first day my skin felt a lot softer already, I know that could be my mind instead of an actual result. Two days later a friend asked if I changed my makeup. Did not, like everytime trying a new skincare regiment I went without primer or foundation because I do not want to risk my brushes causing breakouts and me thinking it was the new lotion. But that person knows me some time so it seems my skin already does look different. February, 17th I had some breakout, not the bad stuff but those tiny little dots that happen a lot when you switch your skincare products – at least for me that happened a lot before when changing, usually a week after I started. Those dots disappear within two days so I am perfectly fine. Especially since I noticed my pores getting smaller, which really felt like someone put a magic spell on me, I was standing in front of the mirror crying because of happiness! My forehead as well was a lot less oily that day already. Looking more like that healthy, silky shine baby skins have instead of looking like I never wash my face. And I got another email from Zenmed, asking if I liked the products so far or if there was something I needed help with. February 211st First week is over. Still the softest skin I can remember, the pores and blackheads on my nose seem to get less every day. Even though there was a lot of stress in private and worklife I still don’t have a lot of acne, no itchy skin, no skin picking signs so it seems even in my sleep something changed which I can’t explain. February 28th Stress breakout due to a family thing. A total of 8 pimples. Usually my entire face would be covered with them by now and since my skin is so very soft there even was not much skin picking and the spots that sadly were harmed did not get an infection. Still VERY impressed. March 13th – even more private problems but my skin definitely looks better than it did look like without stress before I started with Zenmed. If that makes sense. And from how much product is used / left I guess it will last 3-4 months each so the price is not as much as it seemed in the first place!

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So my skin after one month: A lot less redness and acne even when stressed. Nearly no skinpicking, scars get less obvious. The lines would not get worse even though I stopped using my previous serum. Less oily skin, pores a lot smaller. And I still see an improvement so wondering how good my skin will look in a few more months, so happy!

So I definitely will buy some of their other products that they said would work best for my skin for daylie use or twice a week extra treatment as well as keeping on using these three! Probably will try one at a time because I already am happy with the current results and want to see if the new product will do any improvement, can’t say this often enough – sorry!

Have you tried Zenmed yet? Or are there any other companies that did help solving your skin problems? Have a great evening!

Review: Catrice cosmetics Smokey Matte Powder Liner

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Talking about another cruelty free and cheap cosmetic company – Catrice. Wasn’t available in the US for a long time but seems they started selling this brand that Eurpoean drugstore cutomers love already.

So I am an eyeliner addict. Probably that and Mascaras (or my false lashes) would be that makeup product I could not live without. Even when I am sick at home, in pain and fever it is very common for me to at least do those two things. That’s probably why whenever I see some new eyeliner it ends in an impulse purchase. When I did my DM-Online order, after filling my cart with what was needed I made the ‘mistake’ to head over to the beauty category. For sure everybody knows that feeling when you say or do something and while doing so you already know you better should not have.

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left: packaging & spongetip, center: swatch by itself, right: in eyemakeup

This time though it wasn’t a big mistake, at least Catrice stuff is reasonably priced, better said cheap. The smokey matt powder liner is described as ‘Matte black powder kajal with thin foam tip for easy application.’ and contains 1.0g/0.035 oz., should be used within 6 months.

While I usually prefer those liners with very thin brush for whatever style of eyeliner would be done and while I usually really hate foam / sponge like applicators for eyeshadows I have to admitt that this one is quite handy. Easy to get equal results on both eyes, even pigmentation when your cateye includes some bigger areas and easy to blend into your eyeshadows as well. Of course with powders it does have a bit of fallout but managable for everyone who is able to use pigments – I was able to wipe off the fallout with a simple fan brush. It lasts throughout my working days as well as party nights and still is probably the easiest from my collection to remove. When I did use a thin brush the results were not too good so this to me is for days when instead of sharp eyeliners I want softer looks or something to be really black but blendable outlines. Happy to have this little guy in my collection and probably will buy another one as backup just in case.

What kind of eyeliner tips do you prefer? Do you see them as a staple in your collection? Have a great evening!

Batfit 17-01 & Gear review Movit Hip Hoop!

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January 1st our dear Professor wrote about Batfit being 5 years old. This year she started by giving us a lot of new challenges in the first week already, exercising 30mins (which I do 2 days then 1 day off), relaxing (for me some yoga poses after workout and streching, like corpse pose, simply being there, breathing and concentrating on my body and soul. Or on my pamper days aka my no-workout days)

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Progress in January

Food: First working on drinking habits, need to stay gluten free because I am not doing this for some trend but to avoid my migraines and stomach pains (don’t worry, saw some doctors to understand that my body really can’t handle gluten, diagnosed celiac disease) and I am trying to get somewhat back to a montignac based diet throughout the year. My self set rules for lowering sugar intake and all that will not be followed as strict while I travel and if there is some craving I think it is ok if only happens once a week.

list-bat-png Goal was to change my energy drink intake that grew a lot during the moving months back to 1 can / day max and instead switch to coffee if I feel the lack of caffeine, definitely will try to also drink less coffee later this year but for now I am happy that I did so well.

list-bat-png Goal was to drink about 750ml Water and 1.5l Tea. Or however mixed healthy liquids each day. Of course more is ok but my skin and body need this amount of water.

A few days didn’t go as well (let’s say 2 instead of 1 day / week of breaking my self set rules) but every little bit helps! Next month I will try for these goals again as well as working on food.

Numbers: No scale in my new flat yet and none at work either but lost some cms in all the places I was hoping to lose some. Still there are more important things than numbers and so maybe I will try to ban them from my mind. Even though I would love to copy our professors 40by40 as a 30by30 but maybe, just maybe I wanted too much too fast, this can break you. I do set my big goals and add a few tiny steps in between which I will share with you. No numbers, no dates, for now. Maybe this would count as some ’emotional / psychological health goal’?

Workout: For me means a mixture of ballett, yoga and weights. 15 mins right after standing up, before the shower and 15-30 minutes sometime during the day, one or two days off each week and when I am not home. the first bit of workout is easily done and might be upgraded to 20 minutes each day, the second part I managed to do maybe half of the days this month, will set this as goal for February again, two days workout, one off and those days that I’m not at home will be off as well.

Mental: I guess everyone who follows this blog or my social media might have noticed that 2016 for me was a horrible year, emotion wise and with everything related to my mind as well. Did do some changes and a 3-year plan but let’s save this for another future Batfit post because it would contain too much writing.

Gear review: Movit Hip Hoop!

Amazon, you are a devil. I do have quite some wishlists there, for my flat, for my wardrobe, dvds, books and a slowly growing one for fitness gear to use for my everyday workout at home, to build up some different workout sets so it won’t get boring. While I was browsing for some new weights there was this black and green hula hoop, with 1.3kgs weights that made it into my shopping cart the exact same moment. Since hula hoops probably are something nice to add to everyones workout routine I never really thought about getting one before.

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left: I love it when parcels arrive without any damage. center: the tiny green bumps that might be painful at first but work amazing in the end. right: connetcion bits of the hoop.

The hoop is split in 8 parts that you have to put together, you can also take them apart again to easily transport them in a bag or something instead of carrying that 96cm wide hoop with you built together. That is something good but also means that the hoop is not as silent as one-piece-things are and if you live in a house where you could hear your neighbors snore through the walls you might not want to use it at night.

First day was as bad as I thought, 5 minute timer and only managed to keep the hoop up for maybe 10 rounds once. Within a week though I was able to keep it up for a minute. Let’s see how long it will take until I can keep it up the entire daylie 5 minutes! By the way, it feels good to do this after a bit of yoga in the morning! Of course, due to those green plastic bumps I got some really painful bruises but as soon as they vanished my skin felt so much more firm and I noticed some great loss of fat. Might, of course, be an illusion but I guess what feels good is good.

Will you join Batfit 2017? Have a nice evening!


Hair(-care) Update! Bleaching back to blonde! Daddy oh!

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Talking about regrets? As much as I was convinced to stay with my lately black dyed hair I now wish I didn’t do that. I noticed I looked like a young version of my mom, which is ok since we don’t have any problems but really I like to look like myself instead of like another already existing person. So I thought that I would go back to the platina blonde hair that I also enjoyed for some times, back in 2011/2012 I think. Back then I had colorful dip dyes, might do that again at a certain length.

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left: nearly black hair / offblack, nice but I don’t want to be a copy of my mom. center: back then when I had platin blonde hair (oooh, look how pale it made my skin look like!) which I changed because I wanted to grow it longer, right: colorful dipdye, might do this again once the platin blonde parts are long enough.

While 9% bleach definitely is good enough for my naturally nearly black hair it seemed I needed something more for the black dyed parts, did 3 bleachings with 12%, roots and some different parts each time so I would not end with dry, plastic like, fried hair. After the 3 times I reached a point where my hair won’t get enough lighter compared to the damage it would take so no more bleach for the lengths. Only going to bleach the roots from now on.

When I decided to go for the black hair a few months ago I wasn’t sure if I wanted black or platin blonde hair because I liked both when I had them a few years earlier. Black or dark dyes won’t damage your hair as much as bleaching will, that’s what caused my decision. Then again I use argan and coconut oils for my hair-care-days (aka every day to the tips and every three days on the entire hair) which makes colorful hair as well as dark hair easily look strange, dull, oily and so on. When I had blonde hair though it was fine. The dip dyes only lasted for a short amount of time anyways so that was ok as well.

These days a lot of people go for white or silver hair, I doubt it would suit me since first lines appear, so for me there is no need for using white toners. What I use to get my hair a little less yellow-looking is Lush’s pigmented Daddy-O shampoo which was made for exactly that, blonde hair and has an amazing scent of violets, bergamot and roses that will last for the exact time I have in between my washing days! No additional toners or conditioners needed these days, Daddy-O and argan / coconut oils give my hair all the required care.

By the point that my roots were the color I wanted for my entire hair and that I cut off the dry ends I felt that the still outgrowing part did look strange. Off to pinterest (see my hairgasm board) again and found a lot of haircuts that I thought would look nice while growing the shorter hair out. Slowly cut until my hair was shoulder length and probably now will simply let them grow this way as long as possible while keeping the platin blonde, maybe the darker blonde parts will get some dip dye because black, copper or green tips definitely would look nicer than dark blonde. So maybe the black dye wasn’t the worst thing that could have happened, at least I now am able to properly grow my hair the same length which I think will be done by my birthday / by WGT 2017 and afterwards I’ll try how long I can get it to grow without breaking too bad.

Previous hair posts? Paul Mitchell, how to maintain bright colored hair, Suddenly Misty

How about you, any plans with your hair? Achieved your hair goal? Found your Holy grails? Have a nice evening! Oh and, you’re tagged!


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