Hey there, Internet!
Today (Dec, 1st, 2015) was after a long time that I woke up, sitting in bed, screaming. I am sorry for my neighbors, even though luckily I sleep when most of them are awake or at work anyways. Maybe people think it is quite common to wake up from nightmares, for me it is not. When I was a child, maybe at the age of 10 I started to concentrate on my dreams, thought it must be possible to actually change the way you act in them.
This being the ceiling of the sleeping area in my bedroom…
Eventually I noticed by concentrating before falling asleep and recording my dreams as well as thinking about my behavior in them as soon as I woke up started to work, I was not able to control my entire dream but knew I was dreaming and was able to change a few sequences, for example to turn around instead of walking where my feet wanted to go in the first place.
So when I was allowed to google a bit (Those were the early days of internet for private people in Germany!) there was not much I could find but a few people mentioning they were able to fully control their dreams and you were able to find a few ‘steps’ as guidelines on how to achieve this. Those steps seemed similar to mine so I tried even more, to the point when I was able to completely control ‘my character’ / myself while being asleep. I also was able to change the environment sometimes but I did not care about that too much.
Maybe until today, I found myself in a place I have never seen, neither awake nor asleep. A place that I felt uncomfortable in from the beginning. I was still able to understand that I was dreaming, able to control what I was doing but there were so many creatures after me. Mixed creatures, human-shadows. They were trying to catch me, they became taller and because of their legs also getting longer they were getting faster. I tried to escape using tricks as well as hiding myself, nothing did help, in the end I saw myself jumping off a cliff, one of the shadows following me was tall enough to grab me with his hand, it felt uncomfortably tight, I started screaming and woke up this way.
Common nightmare maybe? Maybe I just didn’t have any nightmare after I realized I could control my dreams and this is something that had to happen sooner or later? Still I am pretty much confused because usually this would not have happened to me. So being part of generation google that was the first thing I did when I woke up. It seems there are two (or more) different ways to ‘control’ your dreams, ‘Lucid Dreaming’ and ‘Dream Control’.
In both cases people advice to get enough sleep, maybe the 3-4 hours I’ve slept during the last few days were not enough but I’ve definitely slept less when the creative bug bit me before. The only electronic devices that were left on were the common cd-player with rain-sounds and a faerie-light.
What about my readers, any of you (trying to) control your dreams or active in analyzing them? Have a nice evening!